Racism
In 1957 I started first grade in Brooklyn, New York. I remember being very afraid the first day of school. I had never been away from my family. And to top it off, it was on that first frightful day I discovered my first name. My name was called several times and I just sat there not knowing that they were calling me, you see all of my young life I was called by my middle name because I was named after my aunt, and we lived in same the house my family did not want to confuse us . They forgot to tell me before I went to school, but I survived the ordeal. It all came together; I learned my name and everything else that was presented to me in school. I was doing so well in second grade; I was top student in the Black and Hispanic neighborhood school, so I was one of the first to be bused to another school in an Italian and Irish area.
My mother and father worked very hard to send us to school well groomed, and my grandmother kept our clothes starched and ironed. My father worked at an upscale department store in Manhattan called Orbachs. He was an elevator operator, and he was well liked and his co-workers always looked out for his daughters. Orbachs supplied all of the soap operas’ wardrobes, and at the end of the season if the studio or actor didn’t want the clothes they went into the store’s thrift shop. My father’s co-workers knew our sizes and would alert him of the item that would fit my sister and me. As always we were well dressed and groomed first day of school Vaseline face and all. We started this new school with a large group of white parents and children with signs, and yelling words as our school bus pulled up to the new school. Now when I look back at that day I can’t remember hearing the angry words or the seeing the words on the signs. I guess I blocked it out. We were rushed from the bus to the classroom. This is a nice school I remember thinking, but why is everyone so angry I said to myself? I was raised in a strict southern Christian home, we had to be respectful to adults, that is all I knew and that’s why I was respectful no matter how mean they were to me. I had to struggle to keep up with my work. I was an A student in my old school, and my family was so very proud of me, I did not want to lose face. This was a difficult task because this teacher did not look at me, or acknowledge my hand when it was raised- I was invisible to her. When I came to school with dresses that my father bought from his job, Ms. Spellman my teacher would take me out of the classroom, and go and get other teachers in nearby classes, pull on my clothes and say “how do you think she got this”. I felt so bad, but I just held my head high and cried inside. I finally told my mother and grandmother, and my mother went to the school and spoke to the principal. In those days children were not a part of adult conversation, I never knew what was said, but I noticed the principal would visit my class every day. I completed third grade with a B average, and continued to struggle through my elementary school life. I graduated with honors thanks to my cousins and uncles who filled in the academic gaps for me. I believe I can attribute my success to my well-grounded home life, and a big serving of self-esteem that were given to me in abundance by my family.
Racism still exists in Alabama, Mississippi, Boston, Manhattan, Brooklyn, and Long Island, NY where I live now. Racism is like an invisible cloud that covers the world with fear. People are too afraid to get to know each other because racism is grounded in lies and Pre-judged attitudes that have been passed down generationally. We don’t have to travel too far, just look to your right and your left it’s there.
My prayers go out to the children and the people of Rwanda. The racism that killed over 500,000 Tutsi and moderate Hutu countrymen by the militias Hutu known in Rwanda as interhamwe was unexplainable, unreasonable, unconscionable, and inhumane. In early April of 1994, groups of ethnic Hutu, armed mostly with machetes, began a campaign of terror and bloodshed which embroiled the Central African country of Rwanda. For approximately 100 days these Hutu attempted to exterminate their Central American brethren the Tutsi and moderate Hutu. I cannot imagine the horror those children felt watching their families being murdered in front of their faces knowing the enemy could have been a neighbor. Many of the children had to hide in fields to avoid their own death. There were groups of children surviving alone because the adults were slaughtered. Once the 100 days passed, there was mass devastation the crops were destroyed, schools were leveled, and families no longer existed. Children wondered aimlessly wanted to make sense out of what was left of their lives. “These children were faced with having to deal with feeding themselves, clothing themselves, whether they went to school or not and just determining their own future” said Lizanne McBride, the deputy director of programs for the international Rescue Committee in Rwanda.
Nshimyumkiza was nine years old during the 100 days of slaughter in which an estimated 800,00 of his Tutsi and moderate Hutu countrymen were butchered by militias-known as- interahamwe-as well as ordinary Rwandan who had been whipped into a killing frenzy by the Rwanda’s hard-line Hutu administration. Now he is twenty one unemployed out of school and admits that prospects for the future are grim. (Noel E. King ipcnews.net)
Some children were placed in orphan homes, but these homes could not afford to send them to school. The Tutsi children lost their identity. “Unicef reports estimate that 700,000 children – 18 percent of Rwanda’s 4.2 million children – still live in difficult circumstances. “The family structure that used to support the child no longer exist” a 1998 report release by the group World Vision said. Even after the killings began, many western governments sought to downplay the scope of the bloodshed. “The level of trauma among children is unprecedented,” Chauvin said (www.nytimes.com) Children lost whole families, some boys put cloths over their head to be viewed as girls as not to be pulled out and killed.
Humanitarian organizations working in the region now report the Rwanda’s children have been the vulnerable to the poverty exploitation which followed the ethnic conflict. The massacres have left several hundred thousand children either orphaned or separated from their parents. “It is important to build schools and rehabilitate health centers and train people,” Chauvin said. “Obviously that’s a very important- part of what we’ve done. But I think that by keeping an eye on the importance of the trauma level of the children, one better understands what has happened to this country.
Racism exists on multiple levels around the world, but we should not be satisfied in accepting racism on any level here in the United States of America.